I always thought I wanted to have a kingdom built before I found my queen.
The Most High God saw different.
You’re more vulnerable as you build your kingdom as a young king still going through your own process. Like King David of the Holy Bible, you start in the pasture with the promise of the palace…like Joseph the Dreamer, you start in the pit with dreams of the palace…yet you look at your concern circumstance & think “Am I adequate?” And the answer is…no. But you are chosen. Most ‘kings’ of the earth are soulless. But few are soulful with God’s spirit guiding them. This does not leave them untouched from struggle, pain or testing. On the contrary, all the more! The process of building starts with a blueprint & then a foundation. But the cornerstone is the most important part & my cornerstone is Christ so I will surely be fine.
Yet God saw fit to shine favor with the most wonderful…beautiful…spectacular soul on this earth in my eyes, my queen.
I want to give…and give…and give…and give…so much to all of my loved ones…but how much more for the woman I plan on spending the rest of my life with? I have chased mirages of false loves & true lusts in the past prior to my commitment & purging of sins from God so to have what the world yearns for deep down makes me all the more thankful for this queen of mine. I always thought I wanted to have a kingdom built before I found my queen. The Most High God saw different. I see now that a true queen will build with her king as they serve under the King of Kings & Lord of Lords, Jesus.
It’s a beautiful struggle to be transparent, to be empathetic, to place another person’s wants & needs before your own, to be there for another person, to cry in front of a person, to listen to a person when they are on the brink of losing it. But to be close, to kiss, to hug, to have, to hold, to grow, to partner, to friend, to laugh, to play, to be…in love…to manifest love…to create lives from love…what a miracle this woman named Jessica is to my world.
Her voice is the choir of angels, the sweetest of winds that blows by.
Her smile heals me.
Her eyes invite me to desire more.
Her freckles are targets for my lips.
Her body is the temple of God so I handle it with care.
Her mind is a gateway of genius.
Her heart is a waterfall of peace, a volcanic eruption of joy, an oasis of hopeful optimism.
I do not desire to live without this woman. I am elated to marry her in my youth. I am easily the luckiest man alive.
Even as I scribe this, I smile with tears welling up in my eyes because…she is everything I’ve ever prayed for. And I will give my life’s energy to build a kingdom with her, honoring God while serving her as we create a family which will drive my business to skyrocket. Why? Because I must perfect time management skills, I must perfect my artistic / entrepreneurial ways, I must get paid top dollar because anytime away from her is time that I do not have with her.
If you are a young king praying for your queen, keep building your kingdom then one day, your queen will amplify everything that you are doing. And if you are a good king, you will hold her down as you lift her up…empowering her, releasing her, providing & aiming to provide for her, be all that you can be for her, shower her with affection, grow with her, etc.
I am hers. She is mine. My life is not perfect but it is closer to it because she is in it.
I love you queen. Eternally. And I can’t wait to spend the rest of my life with you.
Where love resides…time does not exist.